“But she said to them, Do not call me Naomi; call me Mara, for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, and the Lord has brought me home again empty. Why do you call me Naomi, since the Lord has testified against me, and the Almighty has afflicted me? (Ruth 1:20-21, NKJV)”
In effort to escape the famine, Naomi left Bethlehem along with her husband, and two sons and relocated to Moab in hopes of a better life. Unfortunately, Moab was the place Naomi suffered greatly; her husband, Elimelech died leaving her to care for her sons alone. Mahlon and Chilion remained in Moab and married Moabite women. After ten years, both Mahlon and Chilean died leaving Naomi alone once again. Naomi advised her daughters-in-law to return to their families, but Ruth refused. In spite of the dangers of being a Moabitess woman and an unprotected widow, Ruth declared that she would go wherever Naomi went, live with her, and adopt her beliefs.
Naomi returned to Bethlehem with Ruth in time for harvest season. The women recognized Naomi and began to ask if it was indeed her. Naomi responded by asking them to call her Mara (bitter or sorrow) because of the loss she had experienced. Full of pain and grief, Naomi had no idea that she had entered into the very place and with the very person that God would use to bless her. To make a long story short, Ruth just so happened to glean in the field that belonged to the relative of Elimelech, his name was Boaz. Ruth found favor with Boaz whom allowed her to continue to glean in his field and was offered more than enough to care for Naomi. When Naomi learned of Boaz, she was overjoyed. Boaz was their kinsman redeemer and their last hope.
Naomi devised a plan for Ruth and gave her strict instructions. Ruth followed the plan through successfully and soon became the wife of Boaz. The Lord blessed her to give birth to a son, Obed. The women of Bethlehem celebrated the birth, which brought Naomi joy. God blessed Naomi in her old age through Ruth. God provided Naomi with a son (grandson) to carry on the family name and to fill the void in her heart. Through this birth, the bloodline of Christ was restored.
During a state of depression, a person can only focus on the issue at hand. The person cannot see past their pain or see the bigger picture. This was the issue with Naomi; she could not see that Ruth was a blessing to her and that through Ruth she would be restored. God was working in the background the entire time. All Naomi could see was death, famine, and disappointment. She failed to realize that God was rewriting her story and setting her up for restoration.
I do not know what you may be going through; it may be grief and loss, depression, disappointment, failures, or just waiting for prayers to be answered. I encourage you to trust God. Do not lose hope! Do not focus on what is happening right now, at this very minute. Just know that whatever the problem may be, He sees you and hears you and He is working it out for you. Allow Him to rewrite your story. I promise you it will be perfect.
Faith it until you make it, Hope for the best, Love God and yourself with every fiber of your being!
If you are struggling with depression or grief and loss, please reach out to a professional in your community.